like grown-ups do

we started it all well thought out
I live in the outskirts of your gigantic town
We built the bridge out of flesh, there was nothing
could stop the need for this tree cut down
I was sure none but us had a clue
we planned the building from the first draft
just like grown-ups do

I can still remember the taste of the sea water that way. How you let me climb onto your back, and promised to love me one day.

we married each other, if I may say.
out of spite and love, in a mixture of promise and waste
in imagination: our friendship is bigger and wider, a nation
just like grown-ups do

I hated your politics, you hated my mother, I was a pacifist, you chased merit and honor
We disagreed and made plans, we stepped over our desires and each other's necks
just like grown-ups do

But I can still remember the way you would drag me down the stairs in the movie-theater,
with my eyes closed, screaming and laughing, my miniature roller-coster
your clothes
You took so long to love me back, I thought I might've died.
I rested on your shoulder and you said I knew you better than you knew yourself
you lied
We made up and made love
We walked out and got lost
had a picture frame, on the side of the shelf
Just like grown-ups do

We tied each other's hearts and nested each other's wounds
We let each other down and broke each other's fate
We never lay too far apart, you fell asleep when I cried
I fell asleep when you waked
Just like grown-ups do

I was histeric, you were aloof
I was too much, you wouldn't move
Just like grown-ups, no excuse.

We broke up and made up
more times than we could count
we tried it, and faked it, and cried our eyes out
Your found someone else, We said we'd marry one day
We promised to break our promises
Just like grown-ups do

We let it sit, we built that wall,
I can still see it from the moon
You wanted to have coffee
Just like grown-ups do
I said I don't drink coffee,
And neither do you.
You left after a storm,
I can't remember what year it was
I stood in the rain, till it washed me of you.
I wanted to have coffee
I didn't have a clue
I wanted to be friends, bought a present for you
You told them not to bother,
That I'd never get through
I wanted to ask you
Why, when and who
But we let it sit forever
Stale ruined love
Like grown-ups do.

The tale of the days before is the tale I would like to take home
When we didn't try to play house, when we weren't so alone
The days when there was no bridge, no building, no plans
When we were just kids, waterfalls and sun-tanned
("how many steps from here to the house?" "guess what time it is" I'd get it right. I loved that look in your eyes when I spooked you out, in such random insights. I was a witch, you knew it. I can still feel your eyes on the dragonfly that landed on my chin. I remember your fake name written on sand, I do)

You may say we should've stayed kids,
It's tempting to agree with you
I miss sharing the mattress, the blanket, and the head-phones, I do
But our mistakes are ours, and hours of flight, like you said.
And I will sing you forever what I sang the first time:
"She's the kind of girl you want so much it makes you sory,
Still you don't regret a single day"

I would never regret the distress you caused me
The things I put you through
I would never regret the days we were unhappy
the pain we went through
I would never regret us trying to be what we thought we could,
who we thought we were,
the mistakes we made
just like grown-ups do.

I would never believe I could live
the way I now do
in the eternal process of knowing
there are no grown-ups

I'll sit with you
and open my boxes
if you sit with me and open yours too.
We'll never be grown-ups,
but now I can show it
all the things that were hiding, and the things that you knew
and I hope you can trust me,
and I hope you can show me,
and I hope to see you.

Eye to eye for once, heart in hand
close enough to see the ripples, true enough to make amends
just like children do.